Bad week all round

The diet is, well fucked this week. I don't think I've stuck to it for an entire day for over a week. I'm still eating less that I usually do, but meals this week have been a bucket of chips, tomato and feta dip with Jatz, milk and dark choc chips, subway + cookie, chilli con carne, rice, sausages, rissoles, kabana, dip and camembert.... And more!

But I've a good excuse. My partner and I broke up on our 17 month anniversary. We moved in together 3 months ago... There's another three months on the lease, and neither of us is moving til the end of that. Work is busy, and I'm jumping between being hurt by it all and binging, to being happy about it all.

And angry. And guilty for breaking the diet. And facebook stalking. That's always fun- I found a guy I had a crush on 9 years ago and added him. Should have just poked him!

Love Today

You can go to all these places. You can have done all these fascinating things, but are you happy? Have you left your mark on those you've known? Will people remember you for what you've done rather than who you are?

Would those close you consider you special to them? Would those who are only acquaintances know what is special about you?

Live how you want to, provided you are considerate of others. Tell those who you think are great, the exact reasons why you believe so. It'll make a difference to someones world, and who knows, THAT could make a world of difference!

At tonight's weigh in..........

a loss of 1.3kgs, I'm down to 61.2kgs!

and a loss of 3cm from the waist.

The good this week- one afternoon on the treadmill, walking down eight flights of stairs because of a faulty fire alarm at work.

The bad- 1 x bacon and cheese Zinger burger, 1 x weight watched pasta meal, 1 x potato chip with pepper and tomato sauce, 1/2 a ham and cheese sanger on crusty fresh white bread.

All in all a good result. There will probably be a few blow outs this week cause of social events and work lunches (Subway, mmmmmm.....) But if I exercise more, it should even out!

First weigh in

I lost 1.4kgs in a week, and that was sticking to the diet except for 2 tiny bits of cheese, and, NO EXERCISE!!!!

And congrats to Enny on her job well done- 2.8kgs, that's superhuman!! And Turkish bread for all in a few months time!

Last night, I broke the diet. But instead of going to Sizzler, having a double Whopper and chips, or gorging on chips and gravy, I had a Weight Watchers Tuna Bake frozen meal...

I've come a long way, baby!

This afternoon, before I went anywhere near facebook the internet, I did time on the treadmill in my lounge room as well as lunges and stretches.

It's nice to know I'm not as lazy and willpowerless as I thought :)

The night before

I knew I was going to start the diet food management plan on the Friday. So Thursday night's dinner was 3 pieces of boneless chicken and chips from KFC...

So greasy and the stupid Emo kid serving didn't even think to provide serviettes or the wipes... I should have abused him so he could go and cry about it afterwards.

Anyways, it was so greasy and tasted heavenly, but I felt bad eating every mouthful.

I now wish I'd made my last hurrah a dinner at Sizzler. I would kill for some cheese bread and those sweet, sweet potato skins.

I'm not even going to make any links, I can't torture myself like that- it's bad enough just THINKING about, let alone seeing pictures...

There's movement at the station

Wow... It's been a long time since I've logged into blogger. It's also been a long, long time since I've written something that isn't work or job hunting related.

Much has changed, some of which will be discussed, some wont. It's taken me this long because I wanted to hide. Wanted to hide this identity from real life people, online people who I just didn't want to have knowing about me, and from myself.

The truth is, much more good has come out blogging for me than bad. I've still been reading, MSNing emailing, myspacing, facebooking and meeting people who are bloggers who I now call friends.

I did plan to come back with a new online identity, but for the life of me, could not come up with one that I liked and felt comfortable with.

Enny came up with the solution for me. Well, she inadvertently did, I saw her latest post and it just came to me.

A bit slow I am....

As she mentioned (if you didn't click on her link and read her post DO IT NOW!!!!), we've both started this particular weight loss programme.

Unfortunately my patented KFC and champagne diet that worked so well back in 2005 wasn't a lifelong thing, who knew??

Ms Enny can promise to blog about non diet related stuff, I'm not going to do that. I'm not making any promises about what I will and wont write about, I haven't decided. There are a few small rules though- my real life name is not to be mentioned on here, ever!

None of the nicknames used for real life friends are not to appear on here, and neither are links to any myspazz or facebook pages... Basically, nothing to identify me, IRL.

That is all.